Came school unusually early today only to realize class got cancelled way before I knew anything,what a great way to start off the day...Sometimes I can be a pretty blur person myself after all. Been too busy lately, Last thing I'd thought of doing is updating my blog or tweet about the things that's been going through on my mind recently.. Got most my assignments settled,except for the RWP Presentation Slides that gotta be ready by Friday. Stressful week it is, especially when I've got work to top everything off. Just wanna get through this week~ Being single ain't easy as I thought it would be, Still getting used to making the right decisions and taking control over my life, trying be focus and not be distracted by all the ladies and party life. What i'm afraid is making the wrong decision,because if I were to fall...I'll probably fall hard and alone. But then again,my friends has never failed to be there when that happens,that's why I love and treasure every single one of them. For the most part,what fears me most is when the emotions inside that tends to take over sometimes. I have soften up so much,to a point where I tend to forgive too easily and care a lot about others..even those who'd scared my heart before. Don't wanna let that be my downfall, especially not now.

Seeing a friend's dad pass away,it get me thinking about how bless we are to still have our mum and dad around. Things might have been rough between us,mum and I,but,as we grow older,we realized the sacrifices and troubles they've went through to bring us up to where we are today. Love my mum more than she thinks I do,although we've had our huge fights before,she's went through a lot without my dad just to feed us three at home...It sure wasn't easy. For that i'm utterly grateful mum,and promise to make it up to you someday,somehow~ when i'm alittle older (:

It's been a pretty rough week,what a way to start the New Year. Cleared all my Mid Semestral Papers,some better than I'd expected,some barely just passing the line. Couldn't be more grateful or thankful that I've not failed one, especially when things were so messed up then,guess that's something to be happy about. Feel like maybe I've been working myself out too much recently,it can be extremely exhausting and tiring at times juggling between work,gym and school. But then again, always gotta remember that we all gotta sacrifice a little,for the things we want to have or wish to achieve...it's just part and parcel of life. Thinking about what's infront of me, this year will probably fly by quickly. With Attachments coming up pretty soon, FYP in the third year, six months of sailing out at sea upon graduation,and then serving my county...Can't help to wonder where I'd be in few years from now.

To be honest, don't know if i'm ready for another relationship. Can't seem to trust anyone,who'll stay through...Cant seem to give myself a chance at another in the first place. At times there are moment where I wish I could share my achievement and joy with someone special,i'll admit. But,it's hard to..with the tough life and journey that's infront of me. Maybe someday,someone's gonna walk in and change everything~ Shall leave faith to settle that for me. As of now,I promises to work on myself and reach towards the goals I've set..Struggle through the pain and enjoy later with no regrets. I'm one step closer to my goals every passing day...shall not give up now.

Emotions,Feelings,Hurts,Sorrows.

So much things to say...But shall keep it short. Things hasn't been going well,things hasn't been the same. This year is gonna be a tough year ahead,but i'm gonna go through all the odds. Seeing the person you love most and care most about with someone else,it's hurts. But what hurts most is knowing she choose him over you,it's cuts right through,deep. I'm just tired of drifting around,I know what I've to do,accept things. Wished so much that things went differently,but nothing you said made me stay,you've made your decision,and helplessly,painfully,I'll walk away. I'll leave everything knowing I did what I could do best in my shoes,I'll respect you and him,I'll be the better man,maybe cause i'm so different now. Can't seem to trust anybody nowadays. Right now the only things I can do is work is on myself, being the man my kids and wife would look up to someday,not because of wealth or fame,but because of my character and the person I'd become someday .

This would be my goals for 2013: 1)Hit between 65-70 kg and get ripped by Dec. Body fat Goal: 8% 2)Complete a Marathon 3)Clear all modules 4)Be better a son to mum and siblings. 5)Quit smoking by June 6)Consistently improve and work myself. 7)Continue motivating others